I had no idea that when I put on the gray slacks yesterday that I would be attacked in his parents’ bathroom.
So why am I going to a family gathering with this man who wants kids that I have no intention of giving him?
Lets just say that good sex is hard to give up. I also like him alot and I am not ready to let go. I don’t think that I’ll be ready to let go for a long time, but I’m prepared to do it when the time comes.
My wish is that he’ll change his mind about wanting kids. Unrealistic, I know, but wishing none-the-less.
I think that we’re both functioning in denial mode and choosing to ignore the reality of the situation. We've chosen to go about our lives as if everything is fine. Maybe he’s hoping that I will change my mind too.
He called me up and told me to get dress he was taking me to his parents’ house for his nephew’s birthday party. I was glad to accompany him.
One would think that I would want to distance myself until this baby matter is resolved, but I don’t. This baby matter has made me want to spend every free moment I have with him. I understand that we are on borrowed time and as such, I want to hold him longer. Squeeze him tighter. Wrap myself around him and never let go.
I want to take all that I can from him, every new adventure, every kiss, every touch—every thrust.
I want to bare every shred of myself.
I want to indulge in him like never before.
I’m not focusing on us ending.
The slacks I wore were gray and simple, but clung to my hips and ass as if they were glued to my body.
“Did you wear those slacks to entice me?” he asked.
”That wasn’t the plan, but are you enticed?”
“You damn right. Didn’t I tell you to dress for my nephew’s birthday party?”
“I thought that I was dressed for your nephew’s party,”
“You’re not” he said grabbing my ass.
“Stop it. Your whole family is here,”
"Excuse yourself and go to the bathroom,”
I stood to leave, and his mother asked if she could help me with anything. I thanked her, but said that I just needed to use the bathroom.
Shortly after I closed the door, B joined me. He unbuttoned my pants and dropped them around my ankles. He picked me up and set me on the counter. I wrapped my legs around his waist and squeezed him deep inside me
I was greedy for him.
With the party just outside the door, B and I was lost in our world. We both knew but no one would speak the words. Our bodies told the story of two people desperately holding on to a love affair that was slipping away.