SWEET & INNOCENT

Happy mother's day to all the mothers out there.

I spent the day with little C. We saw Speed Racer at the movies and ate junk food.

I call to speak with “T” he gave me the cold treatment. He mumbles yes and no to everything.
I tell him that I love him and said goodbye.

There is a scar on my heart for him. It will not heal. I did not cry…this time but gave myself permission to feel like shit and wallow in self-pity. I did for few hours.

How did he and I get here? I could not find an answer and was force to let it go and focus my attention on little C. I have right now to make a difference.

Right now...

He is almost six years old and still sweet and innocent and adorable. I cannot look away for fear I will miss something that will later take us down the same road that I am with T.

That cannot happen.

Comments

[jeremy]

happy mothers day to you. He will understand at some point later, and will love you all the more for standing up to him.