I put him at ease by throwing myself in his arms and planting a passionate kiss on his lips. We made love into the early morning, and spent a few hours discussing us before he had to leave again.
He tells me that I am putting a lot of pressure on him. I am making demands and not looking at the big picture.
I make little demands. I don’t ask for much. I am the least clingy, needy woman I know. But in every relationship, time with our partner is essential for the success of that relationship.
I did not get involve in an exclusive relationship with him to be alone all the time. That's being single. And sex four times a month if I’m lucky, is not my idea of a relationship. That's single with a booty call.
I want to share tender, passionate, loving moments with him. I want to see him and smell him and touch him. I want sex. I want to share my thoughts and feelings with him. I want to grow closer.
So no, I don’t agree that I‘m overly demanding and putting undue pressure on him.
"I’ve been divorce for eight years,” he said. “You’re the only woman who has met my daughters and extended family. How can you question my commitment and love for you? I‘m thinking long term and you‘re thinking short term,”
We took a look at his schedule and for the next two months, there were five possible days in which Nick could spend with me, and he may have his girls.
We sat in silence for a moment.
“We’ll make this work,” he said.
I kissed his lips and neck. I touch his skin. I trace his strong cheekbones with my fingertips. I took his clothes off. I stroked him between my lips and demanded he gave himself to me.
I left him in my bed and showered. I cried but let the water wash my tears away. We’re good together. He’s a good man. I love him. But I knew...not every relationship is meant to last even if you love the person. Most times, it is circumstance that decides our fate.
Most of us are stepping stones...to someone or somewhere else.
Love does not always find a way.
Sometimes, oftentimes, love will break your heart.