THE GOOD WOMAN

“Kitten, when did you know it was over between us?“ Nick asked.

I haven’t seen him since the last time I cursed him out.

He called to have lunch. I made it clear that I was involve with Kenny and would not be interested in getting back together, so if that’s what he wanted to meet about he could forget it. He said he wanted to have lunch and catch up. He wants to remain friends.

Kenny didn’t mind so I met up with him.

People can make us love them and they can make us not love them. Nick made me fall in love him. And he made me fall out of love him.

He made me love him when he treated me a like the amazing woman that I am. He put time into our relationship. When he made travel plans, he factored in time to spend with me. He weathered rain and snow-storms to see me. He called when he said he would. I knew my place in his life. I came before his friends and before golf. There was a time when I had no doubt that he loved me.

And then he made me fall out of love with him. There came a point when I didn’t see him because it was raining or snowing and he didn‘t feel like driving. He stopped factoring me into his travel plans. He didn’t call when he said he would. Where before I had no doubt that he loved me, now I found myself wondering does he even love me?

The defining moment happened one evening when I was waiting on Nick to come home and I didn’t know what I was waiting for. I put all the pieces together and all I came up with was neglect. And limbo is not a place I like to hang out.

He came home and I fucked him, kissed him, sucked his cock. Yes, I did all the things I normally do, but the disconnection had began.

And so to his question, “When did you know it was over between us?“

I had a ready answer. “I decided to leave you when I found myself in limbo wondering if you even loved me,” I said. “The question was also my answer,”

He stares at me.

“I had no idea you were planning to leave me. You were still fucking me,”

“And you thought it was ok to keep taking me for granted. You were wrong,” I said.

He chuckled. “For the record, I know that I’ve lost a good woman,”

“There are more good women out there,” I said, hoping that he learned something. The lesson I learned a long time ago is never to take the people we love for granted. Never. We will lose them.

I’m not just Kenny’s pussy. I am his greatest supporter. His confidant, friend. I listen and I pay attention because I know how costly it can be not to…

I can’t regret the life I had with Nick. We fell apart. That’s all.

And it’s hard to regret anything when I get to go home to Kenny.

Comments

[pinky@dabrain]

1st. You Dont Know How Much It Means To Me

Hehehe....What A Weekend To Remember!

[funms-the rebirth]

hope u had a good weekend with ur dad..... its easy for us to take for granted those we love, and who love us back cuz we think they will always be around..... when i start to doubt a guy's love for me, i know its time i start packing up!

[chayoma]

Taking the ones that love us for granted could be our most expensive mistake ever (didnt know mistakes were expensive). we need experiences like this to remind us to treasures those present in our lives...
:)

[Mocha]

I'm so sick of the guardedness of it.
I just want love.

I'm so glad you can sit down like this with Nick! Its amazing cos I would never have thought it at the time.

But you do have a point: having Kenny make it reeeeaaaaaal easy..*smile*

[kmplx]

strange. it's something i'm struggling with at the moment. need to think abotu some things - food for thought. thx skit.

[audsultimately]

i'm just learning to let go of a nick.... hopefully i'll meet a man who makes me as happy as kenny makes u