I closed the door behind me and went back to Kenny. “He stopped by,” I said. “I didn’t invite him over,“
“You don’t have to explain,” he said.
I stare at him for a moment.
“How is it that you walk in here and finds my ex sitting on my couch, drinking your wine, and you don’t want an explanation?”
“I know that you didn’t invite him over. You would’ve told me. The roses,“ he said gesturing at the bunch of red and white and yellow roses that I’d placed in a crystal vase. “Did he used to bring you roses to make up?”
“Yes,” I said climbing onto his lap.
“You’re not even a little bit jealous?” I asked.
“A little. But only at the thought of him once having you. I have no doubt that you’re mine now,“ He said unbuttoning the red blouse that I was wearing. He kisses me.
“You know Kitten,” he said. “Nick is off somewhere hurting. One of the lowest point in a man’s life comes when he realizes that he has forever lost the woman he loves. You broke a man’s heart today. How do you feel about that?”
I thought about the look on Nick’s face before I closed the door…clarity and pain and perhaps acceptance. I thought about his first step away from me. And I remembered how heavily mine had been. How hard I tried not to stumble. How raw my heart felt. How I counted each step until I reached my car. I remembered the tears as soon as I closed the door. The beating of my heart. I remember letting go of the love and hope that I’d held onto for a very long time. And how alone I felt in my heartbreak. I knew that I would and could move on but that’s all I knew. How and when was a mystery.
There is no joy in walking away from love. Sometimes, oftentimes the only thing that holds us upright is will and pride. Some of us throw will and pride to the wind and surrender all that we are.
I know only will and pride.
“I feel bad for him,” I said. I feel sad,"
Kenny was trying to take off my jeans. He seemed hungry to take me. Perhaps we were thinking the same thing…
We can’t love enough. We cannot have too much. His cock can never penetrate me often enough. He cannot fill me with cum too many times. He cannot wait to have me. He cannot wait…time moves swiftly and the tide changes. My season with Nick has passed. His has come. He spread my legs and buries deep inside me. His thrust takes my breath away. I lift my pelvis to meet his thrusts and moans.
awwwww. Love him right Kitten. He is such a keeper!
Posted by: Temite | Monday, 06 July 2009 at 12:48 AM
I second Temite! yay Kenny!
Posted by: Smaragd | Monday, 06 July 2009 at 02:48 AM
i third Temite
Posted by: chayoma | Monday, 06 July 2009 at 07:51 AM
we cant love enough....deep words
Posted by: funms-the rebirth | Monday, 06 July 2009 at 10:32 AM
Kitten, your Kenny sounds amazing - like you pulled him out of a a fairy tale book, lol...
Its sad about Nick hey, i guess he made his wrong choices, opportunity with you is lost
Posted by: The Way I Are | Monday, 06 July 2009 at 03:22 PM
you and Kenny seem to have such a beautiful relationship!
Posted by: Diane | Thursday, 09 July 2009 at 09:23 PM