I am mentally prepared to be alone. It’s how I’ve been able to escape the trap that so many women fall victim. The need to have a man no matter what.
I love my Kenny. And I have no intention of leaving him, but I will not spend my time fighting over this particular issue that is Cindy anymore.
Cindy is irrelevant. But the way Kenny handles the situation is not. His intention may be innocent and I believe that they are. But what is Cindy's agenda? I know Cindy. I know what Cindy wants and Kenny knows what she wants too. He knows about her little crush so why put himself in that position? What is in it for him? Is it having her adulation? And if that's the case, why does he need it?
I understand that a man needs to feel loved and appreciated, respected even worshipped. That's why he's never walked in the door without being greeted with hugs and kisses. Sex is available. I'm ready to listen to whatever he wants to talk about. To offer support and advice. He cannot complain that he's not getting enough attention from me. I've made certain of it.
I’ve been invited many, many times to go out to dinner with men that I have worked with. Unless it’s business and absolutely necessary, I don’t go. I understand my boundaries. I understand that even though my intentions are innocent, everyone have thier own agenda. And if Kenny doesn’t understand his boundaries with other women, we will have problems.
I'm not foolish enough to think that he will not find other women attractive. I'm sure he's flattered by Cindy. Here's my point: don't put yourself in temptation's way. Because if you're weak enough to fall victim, telling me that you're sorry, you made a mistake will not work for you. I will not understand. I will show you no mercy. I will not forgive you. And I will leave you!
So did he go to dinner?
He did not.
He showed up at my place. And he did what he was supposed to do. He watched the
transformers movie with us that Caesar manipulated me into buying for him. And he and Caesar baked brownies.
And we had a conversation that hopefully put Cindy to rest.